We’ve gotten through another week! More rising Covid numbers, more iconic losses, more unemployment numbers, more displays of corruption in our administration and we are heading for a 4-day heat wave. Some of you are ready, and have been ready to throw 2020 away. All you see is what is going wrong and are missing out on what has been going right.
For me, the anxiety is real. I can’t hide that. The loss of loved ones and friends to the virus, that is as real as well. The need to want to travel and get out of the house more often, oh yeah, I suffer from the occasional cabin fever but I love my home and the alternative which is to live. Work has been busier than it has ever been and I just feel tired ALL THE TIME!!!
One thing I can say however since the pandemic has started is how amazing life has been as well! Because of my anxiety I started this blog which has now turned into a full-fledged business which I pray will continue to grow. I went back to school and in the process of that advancement, I am finding healing for myself in my coursework. The busy at work has led me to become more focused on what is wrong with our company as a whole so I’ve lent my intellectual capital to the Diversity & Inclusion Team which I’ve been a part of for a while now and changes are being implemented. My work itself is also being recognized.
Most importantly however I realized how much I’ve grown up. I liken this time to the markings on the wall as you chart just how tall your children are getting. I’ve entered a new phase of life, a different growth spurt if you will. This time has shown me how much in the forced quiet when I was able to really hear what God was saying to me just how far I have come in the last year very specifically. The changes on the surface look very subtle, but spiritually and emotionally it feels like I’ve leapt across a giant ocean.
I’ve always looked on the brighter side. As long as I have breath, I am grateful for life. My past isn’t pretty and what didn’t kill me really did make me stronger. I didn’t turn to drugs or alcohol to numb my pain or use my body thinking that was the way it was supposed to be. I always trusted there was a better way.
Depression is real and I will speak about that one day soon. Today, I want to encourage you and say don’t let all of the negativity that is happening around you and perhaps in your life cloud the good things that are also happening. If you are reading this, then you woke up and that right there is a great place to get started on counting your wins! Someone else didn’t make it.
Be Blessed and Enjoy Your Weekend!
