It has been over 30 days since I last wrote a blog. I stepped back on August 1st to take a few weeks to complete school and mentally refresh. Looking back, that feels like a lifetime ago and the whole purpose of the blog was to share what my anxieties are and not let them get the best of me. I did continue to journal privately. I had to. I also finished school ahead of schedule and can now humbly say I am a certified expert in Child Protection Law from Harvard!
This past week has amped up my unease like no other week this year. The closer we get to the election, the more my spidey senses tingle. I am ready to start an all-out revolution at work due to inaction on initiates that were put on the table over 90 days ago. Our national security is at great risk and we are spending more air time discussing what we already know about the deficiencies in the current White House resident rather than DOING something (my opinion) of course. The west coast is literally burning. On the anniversary of 9/11, I read that the current administration is siphoning funds, $4 million to be exact, from first responders. I re-live the agony with my sister of 9/11 every year as she must replay those moments as a survivor and it is painful, because you will never forget. She will never forget what it felt like to get out of that building with the chaos around her and we, her family, will never forget the hours in which we thought we lost her because of her great work ethic and how long it took to know she was alive.
This week also revealed the White House occupant withheld knowledge that the virus is deadly and he said nothing which could have saved tens of thousands of lives. I’m not surprised at that. I’m pissed. Not only have we lost people we loved, but there are people I know who are dealing with the after effects of having the virus and it will remain with them for quite some time. Where is the true outcry? Why are we still being sacrificed?
It’s also post Labor Day. By now, everyone should be back to school, but they are not. I was speaking to a friend of mine and her kids do not return until October. Say what? No plan, no guidance, no understanding whatsoever. I give kudos to all parents out here juggling parenting while trying to work and keeping the home afloat. If my child was of school age, I would be homeschooling her and making it work. Keep your heads up. Take this an opportunity to teach your children all of the things you feel they have missed out on in the regular school system while making sure they understand the basics that they would be getting while in school.
There is so much more. However, I am not ready for it, just yet. I suffered a horrible Lupus flare-up that begin last Saturday. My body fought the stress that my mind was ingesting. I need to do better…. I’m glad to be back with you guys to talk things through. Today was not about any particular subject. It’s about taking all of these things in and knowing that I cannot change the outcomes alone and handing it over to my Heavenly Father. You do what works for you. That is what works for me.
You’ll never be any good to help someone else, if you first fall apart yourself. Take time for self-care and mental rest. It is essential. The rest of 2020 is sure to be as capricious as the beginning and you want to be at your strongest.
September is National Suicide Prevention Month. You are NEVER alone. If you or someone you know needs help, please call 800-273-8255 or suicidepreventionlifeline.org
I Love You All!
