This morning I woke up extra early like I normally do and the very first thing I did, as always, before I even open my eyes, is I thank God for allowing me to see another day. Sometimes I say it out loud and sometimes I think it in my head. I do it every morning without fail and I really can’t trace back how long I have been doing it. I also know I do not miss a morning, NO MATTER WHAT! The next thing I try to do is run through my head, “what will motivate me to get me out the bed besides the urgent need to go to the bathroom”?
The definition of motivation is having a desire or willingness to act. Most people find themselves restless at night running a million thoughts and ideas through their heads and unable to settle down and fall asleep. They may even have insomnia. I am no doctor so I have no idea what my situation could be called and quite frankly I have never talked to my therapist about it. Perhaps I should because it has been an ongoing issue for years.
I wake up with headaches. I believe many are caused by the fact that my mind is in a constant tailspin of thoughts and ideas and far from a relaxed state. I fall asleep easily, peacefully at most times. It is the prospect of what lies ahead rather than what I just walked through that causes me angst.
This morning, my motivation for getting up had layers. I want to do spring cleaning. Packing up the summer clothes and pulling out the fall and winter shoes. I want to scrub the tub and mop the floors. I also want to complete my ballots for the upcoming elections and that is why I have a headache. It has been sitting on the table for 2 weeks and I have been ignoring it with today being my deadline in my head.
Make no mistake, I am voting, and it will be dropped off TODAY. My anxiety is that I do not feel motivated by either candidate and the idea that I must hold my nose and settle again is unfathomable. I lean Republican. My views mostly align with a party I don’t recognize today. As a Christian, I understand the Democrats. We need to support and take care of our neighbors and those in need. In a perfect world, we would have leadership in all three branches that look to serve the country as a whole and not advance themselves as individuals.
Motivation is a powerful tool. In an indirect way, it is the shenanigans of the said individuals that will have me voting against 4 years of foolery and lack of interest in doing what is best for the people. I am more determined to make sure those around me understand the consequences on inaction and lack of knowledge.
I heard this morning from 2 different doctors that we are now indeed in that dreaded second wave of Covid-19 and it is expected to be deadlier. True leadership needs to take control and get us on a national plan to minimize further loss of life. I will do my part and stay home, social distance when I go out and wash my hands. Will you do the same? Losing a few more months of socializing to see you all for a couple more years mathematically makes sense to me.
Be safe out there and find ways to entertain yourselves within your homes and a small circle! Depression is real. I love you and hope you have a great weekend!
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Motivating ones self is critical during this climate of chaos and confusion. It’s imperative that we wake up with grateful hearts now more than ever because it settles our spirit and brings to our consciousness that we are not in this alone. Yes, depression is real and compounded by the months of isolation and the uncertainty of what’s to come. Politically, this is one of the worst season’s we’ve had; but also one of the best for exposing issues that had lay dormant in this country and around the world. It gives us cause to pause as people and begin to work (yes, it will be labor intensive), on healing race relations, eliminating systemic racism, balancing economics; and so on and so on…
One thing is certain; we must VOTE, and prayerfully begin to bring a level of competence and respect to the highest seat in the country.
God bless you my sister. Praying for your always.